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Today as we Honor All babies gone too soon, I am especially remembering OUR angels....

Because we have had SO many losses, I find that trying to keep up with "should have been" EDD's or loss dates, since I have one for every month, sometimes, two in a months from years past etc...So, I choose to Honor them ALL on ONE day.

I have my candles ready to light...One for each baby...

And, I have all the balloons ready to be filled, and our letters written and sealed in a small plastic baggy to keep safe (also left links to Blog in case someone finds a set of the balloons) all the special messages that we want the "Angels" to carry up to our angel babies...The kids are the ones most excited for the balloon release...They have each written a letter and drawn a picture to one of the babies we have lost, and have been asking all day "how much longer until we can let them all go!?"...

I plan to release balloons around 6:30, and candle lighting, promptly at 7 pm to stay in unity with the wave of light, that takes place worldwide today to honor all the little ones who flew away, far too soon....

I plan to TRY and get some decent pics...I asked a friend to take some professional pics, but some family issues came up, and understandably, she is unable to help out, But between mine and DH's iPhones we should be able to capture some of it...

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  1. Awe, that is quite a memorial. I will be lighting a candle right along with you this evening. :)

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