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Day 23- Tattoo's/Jewelry

I have both a necklace in Honor of my angels, and a Tattoo...

The necklace I got last year, and does not have a charm to represent the last few angels...I did not have the heart to add to it anymore, and have not had the heart to wear it knowing not all of them are represented...I know, it seems silly, but for now, it hangs in my special box, where I can see it and hold it every now and again, when I am feeling particularly sad about things...I always look at the difference in each gemstone that hangs on there, and I think about how different each one of our angel babies were, and wonder what and who they would have been had they been waking on this earth with us instead of flying in the heavens...

I got this necklace hand made by a amazing lady on BBC (baby center)...It so blessed my heart...and still does....I really should just add the last few gems...


I Got this tattoo just a couple days before the 5 year angelversary of the loss of our Hannah (at 19 weeks in 2008)....It was very healing, especially on the coat tails of the last couple of years, and us coming to the decision this summer to be "done" with TTC and treatments etc...I love that I have a way to remember and honor my angels every single day, for the rest of my life....I also have a memorial for what we have endured and lived to tell the story about...It's a stamp of strength, and courage....Every Time  see it, I smile...

Romans 8:18 says- "For I consider my present suffering, NOT worth comparing to the GLORY that will be revealed to me and in me one day"



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