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Day 9- Music

There are so many, many songs that remind me of our angels... From songs that were popular and playing on the radio during the time of a loss, or songs specifically about loss that I have found on you tube, and even songs I have written myself to my babies....

I have a hard time trying to choose which ones to share , because each one is special, and has it's own story...But For this one I will choose the song, "In my daughter's eyes" by Martina McBride...It was always a fave of mine, and I would sing it when I was carrying Hannah...When she passed, it became very hard for me to listen/sing to...One day, I broke down and MADE myself sing it....It was 2 months since she has grown her wings and left us....I did it....I barely got through the song , but once I did and hit the "stop record" button, I cried a good healing cry, that I needed...Just two weeks later, we would conceive our Rainbow miracle, and last living child, a daughter, who's eyes sparkle like diamonds, are as blue as the sun and remind me of the amazingness of God, and makes me want to me a better person....

The vid is cheesy, since it was just a online karaoke site I use to practice on for my vocals, and sometimes it is therapeutic to scream out as loud as you can to "Heartbreaker" by Pat Bentar, or cry singing Nat King Cole's "Smile"...The video freezes half way through, gotta love flash player from back in 2008....We have come a long way technically speaking....anyway...This is a very intimate and hard time for me when I sang this, it's not my best, but it reminds me of Hannah, and the amazing blessing ( Kaitlyn, our last rainbow) that came after she passed when we least expected it....


 

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