Bye Felicia!

After MORE than 17 pregnancies, (5 live births, one still birth, 4 back to back ectopics, and NUMEROUS early losses), a tubal ligation, tubal reversal, and tubal removal and c section .... I am saying farewell to a old friend. My uterus.

I met with an OBGYN this week to look over my most recent ultrasound, that showed a large mass in the wall of my uterus. tween the pregnancies (mostly losses), the endo and PCOS, he STRONGLY recommended I have a FULL hysterectomy, including the removal of my ovaries. I am only 35 this year, so I will say I was a little taken back initially. However, when I go back and think through my GYN history, its apparent, I will ave a much better quality of life after its all said and done. Truth be told, my hesitancy inst related to the desire for more children. We are content, happy and feeling healed from the years of losses. The twins have completed our family and we are so happy to be past ever trying to add to our family again. My resistance has more to do with the health implications regarding the aftermath. Surgical menopause, and the risk of long term cardio vascular complications post hysterectomy, and osteo issues are REAL. Its not something to take lightly. I am informed, which is probably why i'm a littler more nervous than most. Its not just "no periods ever again"... None the less, the risks of NOT doing it, are far greater at this point. and we cannot rule out cancer until after surgery, and pathology comes back. They COULD leave my ovaries, but I risk needing ANOTHER surgery in a year or two, as the ovaries will feed the endpo, regardless of the presence of the uterus. And I would still have painful cysts from the PCOS... So out they go. They will go in abominably, as laparoscopic isn't a option with the adhesions I also have. Its a new season, and while I know recovery will be hard, I look forward to much less pain in the LONG tun. Its the end of an era. Its semi bittersweet. after spending so much time battling against the damn thing, I'm kinda sad to see her go too, after we just finally made peace.