Monday, October 21, 2013

Day 18- Release-

I really want to release the bitterness I feel to those who have never had to endure such loss and pain and grief...I want to release the bitterness I feel when I see yet anther crack head give birth, then dumper the baby in the trash for dead....I NEED to release it...It eats me up inside...HOW can THOSE people be blessed with a baby, over and over and over, when they could give a crap about them....

I am genuinely happy for all my friends and family who have been blessed with the amazingness that is called parenthood...But it is those who take to for granted, those who dont see the blessing that have, that make me feel bitter inside...I know life is not fair, but for GOD sakes, why, oh WHY do some of the scum of the earth get to continually have more kids, yet we cant have just ONE more....Or how about the people whyo do not have ANY kids at all, who get to watch theese asshats reproduce over and over...I dont kow how anyone walking this journey could not get a LITTLE bitter about it all....BUT, I am choosing to let it go...


I cannot change my situation....I will probably never, ever enjoy the miracle of carrying and giving birth to my own baby again....I need to accept that others will get that blessing, and take it for granted, and I just have to put on my big girl panties and deal....

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