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Really need some prayers....

My tests are getting darker...Which is BAD!!
Here are some tests-
The top one is from two days ago- The middle two are from yesterday- Bottom is from Just a few mins ago- pic taken at 5 mins past dip. The test is even darker now that it has sat...This is NOT good at all....


I finally stopped bleeding so bad today. But the darkening tests are worrisome. This happened with the ectopic  last time too...I Just cannot, cannot, cannot get another methotrexate shot!!!!! I will cry!!! I know There is a chance that this non viable pregnancy can turn around,  and drop like a rock before next week, and set my levels back to baseline, but I have this nagging feeling it is going to need intervention...Again...
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If any of you are prayer people, please send some prayers my way that this resolves on it's own...
Thanks so much...I am trying to keep my brave face on, but I am worried, and feeling really heart broken right now...


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  1. My friend Chanele had a faint positive test 8 days past when AF was supposed to be due .... she started bleeding bad and cramping so she went into the ER and they found two intact sacs. Praying that somehow your little bundle is just implanting itself well enough. I have never seen your test so positive in all the time we have chatted. When do you go for betas? when do you look into getting an ultrasound?

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    1. I have had tons of other cycles with tests way darker than this. I had a couple where my betas made it to over 800 and we saw a sac on u/s etc. Even my ectopic in June had darker lines than this....anyway...My levels are under 100 right now, so there is no need for a ultrasound at this time. I go for a repeat beta today with results for tomorrow!

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