Friday, September 14, 2012

I have decided...

To write......


  I have thought about it for a LONG time now, and have even had a few other people mention to me, that I should write a book about my experience with recurrent pregnancy loss. One of those people happens to be a good friend of mine, who is also a publisher.... At first, I thought, "how silly". I am NOT a professional writer, and I just could not imagine being able to produce something worth reading  in regards to this journey. I feel like I mostly just whine and complain about things on this blog.....Who want to read that!? But then I thought of all the things I have experienced, and the things I have learned about my body and inner self and the medical community.....Then I started thinking about it...I would LOVE to find a book that covers  the tremendous emotional, physical and spiritual strife that comes along with with the territory of RPL. It is such a misunderstood condition by both the patient and  the medical community alike.

  I also started thinking about how much blogging has helped me, and been like a form of therapy for me walking through this mess, why wouldn't writing a book do the same? I believe it certainly can, and will.
I am still working on figuring out exactly what I would want to cover in the book. I don't want it to be solely about MY journey. I would love to add in a few other ladies struggles, and stories, and also have some prayers and confessions in there. I might also add a few songs/poems I have written about  my losses. And finally,  some basic info on what RPL is, and what are the common causes and what tests Dr's can run to help narrow the cause, if any.... Of course I am NO DR, however, in the last 19 months, I have learned more about RPL/fertility than some of the reproductive endo's I know have in 20+ years. Something about actually LIVING it makes it easier to absorb all the facts and causes you to saturate yourself in any information that may help, in this endless search for a answer to the repeated grief we endure.

Anyway...This is yet another thing I can start doing to help bring my focus on something I CAN control. And give me a outlet, and a project to do, along with my weight loss journey, and getting back in shape...I also hope to finish writing a few songs I have in progress...

so thats what is going on....

Still waiting for my HCG to go to <1.  Still struggling with the effects of the methotrexate, and dealing with the emotional turmoil of yet another loss...But I am alive, and relativity  healthy, and so it the rest of my family, so we have a LOT to be thankful for...


  1. I think this is a great idea! I feel like I'm constantly looking for more books that cover the topic of (in)fertility, miscarriage and TTC!

    And you're so right about living it making it easier to absorb all the information. We have to be informed to know what's going on with our bodies. I've tried explaining stuff to my mom, but she just doesn't quite get it. She's supportive...don't get me wrong, but she can't fully grasp all the knowledge I've obtained by dealing with it firsthand!

  2. Writing a book sounds like a great outlet and way to help others for you! What a way to give back! I think it would be great to have a section of success stories from other women. I know when I read the Infertility Cure, that is what I liked most about it....that they talked about the physical nature of the issues but then gave concrete examples of people who dealt with it, but more importantly who overcame it. Who doesn't want to be inspired? Looking forward to hearing more about it! Hope your HCG drops already too!


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