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OB appt

It's that time of year! Time for my 'annual' pap and check up with the OBGYN!  How FUN! (insert sarcasm)....I cannot believe it has been a year since I last saw them, and they referred me to the RE...

I would have bet you 500 bucks this time last year, that by now I would be either ready to POP, or well along in pregnancy showing off gener u/s's, and having regular visits with the OB for prenatal care (I am sure the OB had similar expectations)... NEVER, ever, in my wildest dreams, or nightmares would I have thought I would still be "here" going through this never ending cycle of TTC...

Hopefully all goes well, and I am in and out of there fast...I hate having to wait and watch the 17 yr old  girls who's mother's just checked them out of school for a prenatal appt walk in and out with big ol bellies and ungrateful attitudes.....Or the brand new babies who come along with their mommies for the 6 week PP check up...I *should* be going for my 6 week PP visit in a couple weeks...Or at the very least, be having biweekly OB visits! But Instead, here I sit, blogging, feeling sorry for myself...Waiting...Praying.....Feeling broken...

Of course this  does not negate the HOPE I have for this cycle...It is Just a sad reality, that smacks you in the face when you realize how much TIME has gone by....How much has happened...And, that you still having empty arms...

Anyway...off I go to get the "works" done...Oh joy!


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  1. Ugh. I hate the obgyn! Hopefully it's fast and painless! And if all else fails just keep your head down. Good luck! :)

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