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Woke up to...

......Spotting/bleeding and side pain this morning, even despite having  a darker test...Those, combined with low betas for the DPO and super low progesterone...I already know what that means...Another damn ectopic....I mean really!? I have to have one more beta to confirm with a P4 on sat- But with the bleeding and  my history of the two previous ectopics which presented much like this one, it looks like I am in for another round of methotrexate...Ugh...I am so tired and worn from all of this...Just when I don't think I can take much more, Life throws another pile of crap my way...

Oh and I got a "nice email" from Braverman's office informing me I will no longer receive care from them unless I pay a 2000 first trimester monitoring fee....For a pregnancy that isnt even viable!!??? I shot back a semi peeved mail about it, and then Judy ( the financial lady) CALLED me to tell me they are pulling all my RX's and wont read my lab work!!?? Braverman didnt even have an apology for forcing me into this God forsaken cycle- and then asking me to pay 2000 bucks to manage something that was not even viable!? Oh and, I was never given a RX to check my CBC after being on Neupogen, and never geiven instructions on weaning off the 40 mgs of prednisone, and had I not been privy to the fact that you NEED to wean down, I could damage my body severely by stopping abruptly...I mean, Are you kidding me!? This is just not safe! Come to find out a few of the other ladies on the boards have had verrryyy similar instances take place as well... I was floored yesterday, and I am still pissed today...I am trying not to let the emotions of this cycle being failed cloud my perspective...I don't want to just stand here and blast him/the office, because I am ever so thankful to have a DX and to know why we have had the losses we have and what not...However, preying off of people like this is NOT ok, and I am really sick about it....My local RE will finish monitoring me and follow this pregnancy to baseline, luckily...But, I will have more to say about this Braverman issues in a future blog post....For now, I need some IB profen and some coffee...Maybe a little vodka in it? hahahah j/k...

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  1. Im sorry Megz...you are already have a lot in your mind to be dealing with the financial lady. Its quite rude of them to just flat out tell you those things. Keeping you in my thoughts.

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