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Trust- Easier said, than done....

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I long to trust God with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength...It has proven to be much harder than I ever thought possible...This journey has made me so callous, and hesitant to trust anyone, or anything...But, some how some way, I will find a way to get past it, and trust again....

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  1. EmilyMarch 16, 2013 at 10:33 AM

    I know the feeling. I do my best to trust in God. I know he is real, but lately I've had days when I question His timing. I am trying not to become bitter that it's been so hard for us to conceive and that we are about to fork over close to 20K for a 40-50% chance at having a baby while crackheads across the world get babies they can't care for for free. I keep waiting for God to show me how truly powerful He is, and I can't help but feel like I did when he took my parents from me from cancer. I hope that I too can find a way to get past it and trust again. Thanks for leading the way. It helps me want to keep trying to trust in Him knowing that you are fighting to do the same.

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  2. MegDE2015March 16, 2013 at 11:56 AM

    xxxx's so sorry for your struggles and losses...Life can be so hard some times, and yet, so beautiful and magnificent at others...I try to focus on the beautiful times, in the times of darkness, but even I still have some bad days...It helps to know others struggle the same emotionally, that is why I am so candid...I feel like, if I can feel better after spewing on my blog AND someone else is encouraged or can relate, then it was worth the effort...=)

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