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For those stalking my chart and wondering if I finally tested again...

I broke down this morning, and there was still a super faint line..About the same as it was 4 days ago...I know it is not the trigger still (15 days past today) but there was def no real progression...Just a super faint, faint line (on on all 3 tests). I had this feeling we caught the eggy, but as soon as I got the news about the matches, I just knew it would not stick....I wanted to hope for a miracle, but I just knew, which was why I did not obsess over testing for a couple days, cause, well, why waste tests and get excited for nothing?

So, I got my RX for some birth control from the RE...I will stop progesterone tonight, and then as soon as AF shows, I start my pill pack, and stay on it for a few months, while we wait to see the DR, and save/come up with a game plan on how we are going to afford the treatments....

In the mean time, going to do the "get healthy" thing again...DH and I both booked appts with our Primary DR's for a physical, and we are both going to start a diet/exercise program, and really do whatever we can to control what we have control of....Also, we will be praying every day for healing for me, and for a divine miracle to take place...I am going to go up for prayer at church as well, and take advantage of everything I can  in this time, to bring healing physically, emotionally, and spiritually... I want to be as "ready" as possible, so that when we do try again with the stuff we need, I will be healthy, inside and out...

I am still feeling really sad about it all,  but I am trying to take that and focus on the things I can change...One day at a time....::sigh::

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  1. Suzanne March 1, 2013 at 8:20 AM

    I'm so sorry about the tests results. I know too well about feeling overwhelmed at all the things stacked against you. Stay strong, you'll get there. Sounds like you have a good, healthy plan to move forward. xo

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  2. Catherine March 1, 2013 at 8:41 AM

    I feel like you still aren't out, have you considered getting a beta draw?

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