Sunday, March 3, 2013

A new season...

Today marks a new season for us...The season of healing...

I started my period...And also started my birth control pills as well...

We have decided to take a few months to re-group a bit, come up with a game plan with the new immuneologist, and save some $$, in hopes of being able to afford a round of immune treatments, once I am healthy, have lost a little weight, and have healed a little......I know I cannot ( even if we had the money) go right into this treatments and protocols....I need to have a time to rest and let the Lord restore me, and prepare me, and strengthen me and HEAL me, TOTALLY....

I am going to spend the next few months, focusing on the things I have in front of me already...I am going to work on growing closer to the Lord...I have let the grief and pain of loss,  keep me from drawing closer, and really leaning on him....Not intentionally,  just inadvertently... The hurt and pain, keeps me angry, bitter, jealous, sad and depressed...I dont want it anymore...I want to be free, I want to be healed, and restored...I know that can happen even without having another baby, and so, I am going to focus on doing what I can right now, while we wait to heal emotionally, while I pray for my physical healing from all of this immune stuff....

2 comments:

  1. I am so, so sorry you have to experience this. My heart breaks for you! I will be sending lots of prayers your way.

    Megan

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