So, a blog comment I got the other day from wonderful woman, and awesome supporter of mine, caused me to pause a bit, and kind of evaluate some things about my faith and relationship with God. Which I truly appreciate, because she was kind and not judgy in her words...And I felt God gently nudge my heart each time I read the comment over... I felt my face start to burn with emotion, as tears welled up in my eyes...And I finally admitted to myself... I do NOT trust God...At least not fully, like I once did... But I desperately WANT to be at that point again....Trusting fully...And filled with peace... I walked into this journey, to try for one more, 100% SURE , God was calling us/giving us the desire to have another baby...I/we were, 100% certain we would walk away with a baby in our arms...As a matter of fact, I would have bet my LIFE on it. Now, 3 years later, I am broken, weary, and so utterly soul shattered, that I simply cannot "look" God in the eyes...H...
Oh wow!! Can't wait to see tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteHow long does the trigger usually stay in your system? Hopefully its not the trigger =)
ReplyDeletemine is gone by 9/10 days each time. It varied from person to person, but that is why I test it out. I do a test morning and evening from the day of trigger till I dont see lines anymore. I stopped getting solid lines on 8 days past trigger...and then last night they started to seemingly fade back in. triggers can sometimes wax and wayne when leaving, but after the first 7 days, you wont get DARKER tests from them, if you have previous days to compare it to.
DeleteThanks Megz! If it wasn't for you doing this I probably wouldnt of started testing to make sure its out.;-)
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