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OK....So, forget the neutral stuff and the last post...lol...

I have been in a "mood" for the last few days, since that string of BFP/preg announcements that rolled in a few days back, and I have not been able to shake it...Totally made me a melancholy mary today...Anyway...

Had a LONG talk with DH today on his lunch, about this cycle, and all that jazz...He said a lot of really good things...One thing that stuck out to me he said, "If you walk into this with the mindset that you are going to fail, or it isn't going to work, it probably won't"...Which is soo true...The mind is half the battle when it comes to fighting anything...Your mind is a powerful thing...I realized, I am letting all the past losses shape how I walk into and feel/view this cycle,and how it is going to go. I cannot do that....This one is going to be different...We are actually going to be on meds that we need, that have been shown to give positive results in many ladies...Not all, but a LOT ...We really DO have a chance at a sticky this month, and I need to stay as positive as possible ....So we decided, together, we are going to be as positive, upbeat and happy as we can, no matter HOW HARD it gets, and how much fear, doubt, and cynicism creeps in, we plan to kick it out and stay focused on the much wanted baby bean that we are about to create....If we come to the end  of the cycle and do not get the desired results, we will decide what steps to take next....For now...I stay positive...Lord help me...


Psalm 27:14
Wait patiently for the Lord.
    Be brave and courageous.
    Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
Isaiah 40: 10
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
    Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
    I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
Isaiah 40:17
 Because I suffer and am in need, let the Lord think of me. You are my help and the One Who sets me free. O my God, do not wait.

Eph-3:30
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.

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  1. I love your verses, they are so powerful! It is so easy to get overwhelmed and tell ourselves that it's not going to work, but your dh is so right. We need to think positively! This WILL happen for us. I'm excited about your cycle, it sounds like you are definitely on the right track. I hope this is it for you!

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  2. I will believe those verses for you. God's plans are mysterious, but your DH is right, staying positive and hopeful is the best thing for both of you through this journey.

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