Monday, April 9, 2012

So far so good...

Today has been Ok...No real big breakdowns, or rage,  despite several more BFP announcements and U/s pics to go with it.....It stung a little, of course, but I managed to skim of the rest of the site with no tears and anger...

I even made it through yesterday at church, without bawling the entire time, and racing out of there before having to face the new baby that's being passed around and loved on by everyone...

Still, deep inside, It hurts...I should be getting ready for our April baby to be born in a couple weeks, not trying to re cooperate after another loss....Taking it one day at a time...trying so hard to rely on GOD for strength and peace...trying to be still, and let him work...But I feel like I have to DO something...ANYTHING.....

It has been 13 months, and I just am so amazed we are still here...I just wish I knew what or why all this is happening...And that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...I can't seem to find it still....

2 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry if I hurt you in any way :( ((((Hugs)))) You have no idea how much you, your site and your words have made my days so much better.. I hope things get easier for you..

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  2. No No, not at all...You have been through the fire to get that BFP safe and sound...It is the people who could care less about the miracle they have been given...those who do not understand loss, and those who have NO idea what it is to TTC...lol..those are the people that kill me to see get blessed...when we are trying so hard and cannot get there...

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