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Just wanted to share a few recent snap shot's of the kiddo's...I don't usually share too much about them on here, as to not upset those reader who do not have children and try and keep my topics based on my recent situation...But I find myself feeling so very thankful for them....Being on this break gives me time to reflect, and has shown me they are also miracles...I thank God for the ease in which they came into this world...I never thought I would be one of those women who struggle to carry a pregnancy, and having had 3 term births, neither did any of my DR's...So I am forever grateful for them...And Just wanted to take a moment and share them with all of you...

This is my Step Daughter, Lindsay- age 10
This is My daughter, Hayden, age 10 who I had with my ex- in CA
This is Isaiah, age 6, who is My husband and mines, first biological child together...
This is Kaitlyn, age 3 ( in a couple weeks) who we had after the loss of Hannah...She is our "rainbow" baby.

Each one of these beautiful children teach me something new every day...They grow, and change so very fast, right before our eyes...They challenge us, and inspire us to be better parent's and people....
I am so thankful for them....
But still, after feeling all that JOY, and love...I can't help but feel sad, knowing we are missing another family member which then, leads me to think of all of our angels.....I know the time will come soon, and we will be blessed with just the right  child...But I just wish it could be SOON...For now, I focus on what I have in front of me, I am forever grateful... But my heart still longs for that 2nd rainbow to come....


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  1. CaitlinJuly 20, 2012 at 10:43 AM

    You have a beautiful family. All the best to you on your journey.

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