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Just when...

I thought it could not get any worse...
it did...

It turns out, not only did I have my 10th loss since TTC this time around, but this last one ended up being ectopic...

I woke up sunday morning and tested, and  got a nice line...Two hours later, began to bleed severely. I marked it as CD1 and chalked it up to a chemical pregnancy. Fast forward 2 days, and I was feeling strange, had strange pain, and the flow of AF had changed and went all whacky...I tested on a whim...to my dismay, it was MUCH darker..

Today...I test again...Darker! Still in a lot of pain.

I had an Appt. with the new RE today. It went very well....We talked about a few different things. First was my darkening lines and bleeding ect. We decided on a u/s in office and a beta HCG at my local lab for today(wed) and Friday.

Next. Basically, There is no other real blood tests to do, as I have had everything done. We talked over my HSG and SIS results. and he said those tend to show only major abnormalities...He suggested we do a hysterscopy, and go in with a small camera to get a better look. I agreed and told him I asked for one 7 months ago at the other RE. Anyway, We then decided that once the current pregnancy situation was resolved, I was going to take a 3 month break, on birth control...And let my body rest, and heal. I agreed, as I just really felt like it was something I needed to do...I left there overall with a good vibe from the new DR, and felt very comfortable.

So I leave and stop at my local lab, and get my beta. I wait a couple hours, and get the cal...
Beta- 78
progesterone -.08
U/S showed normal baseline CD3 type lining, so no chance of pregnancy in Uterus...That coupled with my bad side pain and non existent progesterone they urged me to come in for the methotrexate shot, and confirmed what I felt to be the case anyway...It is an ectopic pregnancy. So I drove back down, and got my injects...yes TWO huge ass needles in my BUTT...OUCH...Got the run down of the side effects and what not to eat and not to take etc...Got some good pain pills, and now I am home, resting, trying to make sense of it all.....

I just think....What if I had just not tested and thought my bleeding was my period...Like many women do...I am thankful I tested...that I listened to my body......I know I saved my tube and even my life....

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  1. So sorry! I was on methotrexate for three years and it's a nasty drug, but it worked for what I needed it for. Let me know if you have any questions. You can send me a facebook message if you need to.

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