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Not really sure what to do with myself today...

It has been 29 months since I started counting down/saving up and getting ready for my tubal reversal....In that time I have poured myself into TR/TTC stuff non stop...I feel Like I have done this for SOoooooooo LONG now it feels foreign to start living life outside of these thoughts. I am just not sure what to do....I can only clean, sing, organize and play with the kids for so long before my mind wanders to the "what if's" that will come after our break is over and "what supps/meds should I take etc"....HOW do I separate from this frame of mind? How do I really "let go" of TTC and focus on "life"??  I just am not sure what to do! I want to really make the most of this time off...but it is soooooooooooo hard when I am broken over the losses... Disappointed with not knowing WHY we lose them, and scared for the future of possibly losing more...I can't seem to let go of this season of my life because I know we were PROMISED another baby...And I just don't know how to have peace till that happens...

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  1. AnonymousJune 18, 2012 at 10:38 AM

    HI MY NAME IS SHELLY AND I JUST HAD A TUBAL REVERSAL 3 WKS AGO. WHEN DID U HAVE YOURS? I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR BLOGS ONLINE TO SEE IF THERE IS A GROUP DISCUSSION ON TR,. HAVENT HAD ANY LUCK BUT I DID COME ACROSS YOURS! SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT UR LOSSES. IM SO NEW TO ALL THIS AND LOST! I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST.......SHELLY

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  2. MegDE2015June 18, 2012 at 10:40 AM

    Hi shell we have a TTC after TR support group on face book. just type in Private TTC after TR in the search bar and it should pop up.
    I had my TR done March 2011.

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