Me singing "somewhere over the rainbow"...Hard one for me to do without crying-
After MORE than 17 pregnancies, (5 live births, one still birth, 4 back to back ectopics, and NUMEROUS early losses), a tubal ligation, tubal reversal, and tubal removal and c section .... I am saying farewell to a old friend. My uterus. I met with an OBGYN this week to look over my most recent ultrasound, that showed a large mass in the wall of my uterus. tween the pregnancies (mostly losses), the endo and PCOS, he STRONGLY recommended I have a FULL hysterectomy, including the removal of my ovaries. I am only 35 this year, so I will say I was a little taken back initially. However, when I go back and think through my GYN history, its apparent, I will ave a much better quality of life after its all said and done. Truth be told, my hesitancy inst related to the desire for more children. We are content, happy and feeling healed from the years of losses. The twins have completed our family and we are so happy to be past ever trying to add to our family again. My resistance has more...
As soon as you started singing my whole body was covered in goosebumps. I can only imagine how hard this one is for you, and yeah, by the end, I'm crying with you. I hope O or AF shows up for you soon.... I'm back on CD1 today. :(
ReplyDeletemany hugs and pryers...I hope the last year brought you some rainbows...
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