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Standing on the Word...

So this month, I have decided to "not try" and give my body a rest, and do a cleanse, lose some weight and spend some time really trying to heal from all of this...I never Imagined I would be going though yet another loss...And still here a year later with NO baby, and broken hearted ..

But, rather than get angry at God, who I know did not "take my babies" or cause this to happen to "get a message to me"...No, instead, I will stand on the word, and claim HIS promises over my life...Even though some days I don't FEEL it, I am going to do it anyway...I will speak these out of my out each day, and tell the enemy to take a hike and get out of my head. The power of life and death is in the tongue, and while I know this principal is true, I have not really, truly been walking in it. I also did it half heartedly, with a "wishful thinking" kind of attitude behind it. Not this time...I know that his word never comes back Void, and I know that I will over come...That I have the authority to call things to be.

The Word says in Psalms 127:3, 
“Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord and the fruit of the womb is his reward.” 

Psalms 84:11 says,
 “…no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.” 

Also, Psalms 113:9 says, “He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children….” 

Exodus 23:26 in The Amplified Bible states, “None shall lose her young by miscarriage or be barren in your land….” 

Yes, this is what the word of the Lord says, and I will stand on it, and claim it, and speak it out every day, regardless of how I feel...

I did this when I was pregnant with my darling daughter, every day...and she is here safe and sound...
One would think after knowing this all, I would just be  doing it automatically...But I had to go my own way, and try and control things in my own strength, and it has left me empty and totally wiped out...I am going to rely on God to give me strength ...and take it day by day, speaking out the Word of the Lord...One day at a time...One moment at a time...


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