HCG was 121 (doubling time of 75 hours) progesterone less than 1...Ultrasound this morning, showed a "possible mass" on tube, but it was too small/early to really tell exactly what "it" was...But there was nothing that would indicate a viable pregnancy in the uterus as the lining is thin and nothing could even stick in there...RE wants me to do one more beta draw on wed- and if they have not dropped on their own I will get the metho shot that morning....Ugh- I am so frustrated~!!!! I just want this to be OVER!!!! ::cry:::
After MORE than 17 pregnancies, (5 live births, one still birth, 4 back to back ectopics, and NUMEROUS early losses), a tubal ligation, tubal reversal, and tubal removal and c section .... I am saying farewell to a old friend. My uterus. I met with an OBGYN this week to look over my most recent ultrasound, that showed a large mass in the wall of my uterus. tween the pregnancies (mostly losses), the endo and PCOS, he STRONGLY recommended I have a FULL hysterectomy, including the removal of my ovaries. I am only 35 this year, so I will say I was a little taken back initially. However, when I go back and think through my GYN history, its apparent, I will ave a much better quality of life after its all said and done. Truth be told, my hesitancy inst related to the desire for more children. We are content, happy and feeling healed from the years of losses. The twins have completed our family and we are so happy to be past ever trying to add to our family again. My resistance has more...
I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do to make this easier. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteso sorry hugs to you!!!!
ReplyDeleteAs if it's not bad enough to know it's not viable, to wonder where it's at now is maddening. I really hope and pray those levels DROP and you can avoid mtx.
ReplyDeleteThere really is nothing you can do that you aren't already though. Maybe remembering that will help you find a tiny shred of ability to just throw your hands in the air and let it take it's course. I will pray for a fast resolution for you so you can be done with this chaos!