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Hello 2014!

Well, well....Here we are...

A new year, new opportunities, A chance to start over...


I am excited for what is on the horizon for us!! It has NOTHING to do with TTC/IVF/adoption, babies etc..We have realized it is time to set aside those dreams and desires, and focus on something else for right now, not because we WANTED to, but because we HAD to...Maybe one day, things will be different for us financially, and we can look into those things again one day, but for now, we cant even entertain the thought...Anyway, I digress...

So, this year, we have quite a bit going on!! Here are 4 things that will be happening  in 2014~!

1. We are MOVING, from upstate NY(20 mins north of albany), to Southern Cali (near Big Bear- 60 miles east of LA)! It is actually my old hometown we are moving back to, it is is kind of exciting, adventurous and nostalgic all at the same time!

After more than 80 hours of work in the last 2 weeks, the repairs, painting, packing and staging is DONE! Picture appt was yesterday (for the agent/listing) and the house will be officially on the market later this afternoon!
ahhhh!!!!








We are waiting to hear back from DH's company, from the district in CA, to see what the relocation benefits are going to be for the available positions in the 3 locations he chose....We should get that info by the 24th...Its looking like end of Feb/early March will be our ETA for CA!! It is going to come sooooo fast! I am thankful we are 85% packed...NOW to start making calls for switching schools, getting homeschooling info, getting info on DR's and new Vet's etc...

An other HUGE thing I am thankful for, is my parents are letting us crash there for a couple months till be buy out there...Hoping everything is seamless with the selling of this house and buying/closing of our new home, so it wont be toooooo LONG...I love, love, love my mom, but after 2 months living there, I will be ready to set up our own place! LOL!

2. I have signed up to do the required classed to be a StillBirthday.com's certified bereavement doula! I am excited to start using the immense grief/pain/heartache we have had to endure, to help other people! I WISH I had someone experienced and trained like that when  we have been faced with losses in the past, especially the later losses, and the ones requiring surgical intervention etc. I think this will be a good step in the right direction for me...I aso think the training will bring about healing for me, that is much needed, as will being there for another  woman in a time of heartache...Not that I don't get a HUGE blessing out of "being there" for my online ladies and blogger friends etc, but I know, that one on one, in person interaction with another who has walked in similar shoes can be a huge help, when you feel SO alone...I should start classed and training this summer, once we get settled out in CA!

3. I am writing music again! I am singing again! AND my mom (who is a musician/performer, in the resort area of so. cali) and I are collaborating, and will be gigging together at least once a month! I am soooo excited to really get back into doing something I love...For so long, music has been a trigger for me...hearing certain songs that were popular during certain time frames after a loss etc...Sometimes the words, they just cut  like a knife, and  slice open the gaping wound in my heart...I have kept my music and writing and such at arms length, long enough. I am ready to pick back up, where I left off, and let the music heal! And, the icing on the cake, my kids are getting into music and dance as well- (the girls will do ballet at my old dance studio)

4. I have lost 40 lbs since this time last year! I have to say, I am pretty stoked! I dont even have any before and after pics that would show the weight difference, as I always hid from the lense especially if someone else had control on the camera...Anyway, it feels good to retired the size 16/18's...:) I still have 30 more lbs to go, but I have a feeling it will happen in time, after we get settled into a routine again...For now, things are just chaos...LOL...Living moment to moment! Trying to enjoy the ride!!

So that is what is going on for right now...



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