So, a blog comment I got the other day from wonderful woman, and awesome supporter of mine, caused me to pause a bit, and kind of evaluate some things about my faith and relationship with God. Which I truly appreciate, because she was kind and not judgy in her words...And I felt God gently nudge my heart each time I read the comment over... I felt my face start to burn with emotion, as tears welled up in my eyes...And I finally admitted to myself... I do NOT trust God...At least not fully, like I once did... But I desperately WANT to be at that point again....Trusting fully...And filled with peace... I walked into this journey, to try for one more, 100% SURE , God was calling us/giving us the desire to have another baby...I/we were, 100% certain we would walk away with a baby in our arms...As a matter of fact, I would have bet my LIFE on it. Now, 3 years later, I am broken, weary, and so utterly soul shattered, that I simply cannot "look" God in the eyes...H...
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ReplyDeleteThis pretty much describes how I have been feeling lately. Thank you for posting this.
I may have to steal it and add it to my blog.
Welcome! sorry I have been so MIA in writing...I had a few other posts on there, I removed, after I got some nasty messages etc...Please feel free to use any info/special things on here as you wish ( just link my blog) . =) And I will be sure to do the same! =)
DeleteI am sorry people sent you some nasty comments. I hope that doesn't stop you from writing.
DeleteNo, def not going to stop me!! The comments bothered me for a bit, but I am not going anywhere, just trying to take some time to refocus a bit and really steady myself as best as I can before the start of a new year.....Lots of changes on the horizon,, which I will post about once Christmas is all over and done. =)
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