Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Say something......Please...Just say something...

I have seen this song circulating around on social media a lot in the last few weeks...It touched me right from the first time I ever heard it...I have seen it touch many others as well, in many different ways...I recently saw a post by Holly at Oh Baby,Baby (who is in my prayers daily) that touched my heart, and just made me reflect how this song has impacted me as well...

There are many ways one can "relate" to the lyrics in this song...For me, I recently found myself in a place where I was so broken, no... CRUSHED. I felt so totally abandoned by God, I was just begging him to "say something" to me... ANYTHING... I was "giving up on" some of my most intimate and special hopes and dreams, and it felt like I was having to say goodbye to the promises I felt HE gave me 4 years ago, that I was once so sure of...

Of course I will NEVER "give up" on my Lord Jesus, as he will NEVER and has never, ever given up on me.....But I know there are many times we ALL have felt abandoned in one way or another, through varying circumstances, despite knowing he IS there, and we are just screaming out for God to "say something" to reassure us, show us a sign, give us a glimmer of hope in a pit of darkness.....

You end up screaming so loud and desperate, almost at the point of having no voice left to scream, and utterly exhausted, you just feel like giving up totally and completely....I can bet everyone has been there at least once  in their life...

Being Real with God (and even YOURSELF) about "where you are at" is a good start. that way he can meet you where you are, and and say that "something" that needs to be said, just the way you need to hear it....This song helped me see the reality of where I was truly at, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally....I realized that I had things that I had let come in between God and I, and things I put on myself, that caused me to defer my hope (which makes the heart sick by the way) and "give up" on his promises....Once I finally swallowed my pride and decided to "give up" on my own way, He spoke loud and clear to me that day ...That is not to say, that some days, I still dont put this song on replay and scream out to God "PLEASE, SAYSOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!".....I do...I still struggle....

Anyway, I know this song seems semi breakupish in nature- But, It just speaks deeper to me... It has has helped me in a lot of ways...I finally got REAL with God, ( and am still doing it every day) and while I cannot say it is a magic fix for every facet of my life, it has brought me some peace, and understanding, and more than anything a word from HIM to keep holding on to HOPE.....

I don't believe that he spoke a word of assurance for me to hope for a baby solely...Of course, I know he longs to fulfill that desire, but more than that, he gave me a word of HOPE, for healing...For comfort and peace...For closure, and a future with great things, weather we are blessed with another baby or not...He is NOT giving up on me, and will carry me through this...No matter what the outcome may be...


1 comment:

  1. Holly's post spoke to me too, although my faith is in a much different place that either of yours. But my loss, my TTC journey...it has made me question everything and made me wonder where He is. You aren't alone in feeling that way!

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