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But yet, I am lost for words....

I am such a mix of emotions lately...I don't know if I am coming or going...Between my health (which is still touch and go right now due to some unknown auto immune function/virus), my Mom's tests ( she goes for more tests this week and a biopsy) and of course the move...As excited as I am for it, I am just so mixed up too!! (I am sure the birth control pills I started recently is NOT helping me any in the emotional department!) Closing this chapter in our lives signifies so much and it's kind of hard to let go of all of the things we tried to build upon in this last chapter...The good and the bad...Some days I am ready, some days I am anything but ready for this to all get real...

But ready or not, in 26 days, we will close the door to this house, this chapter, this part of our lives and set out on a adventure across the country....26 days....

Oh, AND, a update on weight loss battle- None lost recetly, because well, I feel like POOP- BUT no gaining either and considering I am emo eating and laying in bed a lot, I am happy about it! lol...I decided to throw on a pair of pants that were TOO TIGHT on me last winter-


I have a LONG ways to go to get to my goal, but I also have come a LONG way already and need to remind myself of these little accomplishments when I am feeling down...:)



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