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Say Something....*God answers back*

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I posted a few months ago about a song by Great big world called "say something"...The moment I heard the song, I left like it spoke to the depth of me, where I was questioning "God where are you? say something, I am giving up on you!"...Through the last few years, its has been almost unfathomable to see just HOW MUCH loss we have endured...With each loss that we prayed for a miracle for, it was another disappointment, another way I felt the chasm between God and I get bigger and his voice more distant, his love almost nonexistent...I knew he didn't "cause our losses to happen" but he COULD have at least save ONE baby...Or at least spared me surgeries and complications that were so unnecessary...Anyway...This song was almost my anthem, as we began to close this chapter of our lives...Over the course of the last few months I would say I have inched closer to God again, but there are times I keep doubting and asking "where are you in the midst of all this pain! I am not asking for a miracle anymore, I just want peace! I cry out and hear nothing!!"...Needless to say its been a battle...

This song popped up on my feed this morning, (I thought it was just a regular extended cover) and because I had not heard the song in a while I figured, why not have a GOOD cry to start the day, since I woke up feeling melancholy....I clicked play...The tears started....

Then about halfway through, I realized this was NOT a typical cover song....I will let YOU hear it for yourself, but, cue more TEARS...


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  1. Lisa NMay 29, 2014 at 8:00 PM

    OH man...it's not often that a cover improves on the original. I got teary-eyed and I knew to expect something. I'm sure it was even more emotional when you weren't expecting it. Thanks for sharing this. By the way, have you seen the YouTube video of the little boy crying to the original? It's the sweetest thing. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Js4YZ1z0to

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