I have NEVER been a person who was good at or patient while waiting...I always huffed and puffed, and moaned about things..."WHY is it taking sooooooooo LONG" stuff...Looking back, a lot MOST of those things were pretty trivial, excluding the last 4 years...
This last season of life has presented more challenges and waiting than I would have liked...Its been nearly unbearable. Especially, the baby thing. To have waited so LONG (more than a year just to get surgery to TTC again- then 3+YEARS of actively trying) and have so many losses, and invested SO much money, all for nothing, it is a hard pill to swallow...It makes one not want to take risks again, quite frankly...The "what can go wrong, usually will" is a theme that seems to have followed me around these days, along with Murphy's law...
So when we decided to step out and relocate from NY to CA, we had an inkling that we might run into a few bumps in the road here and there...Never did we expect there to be sooooo MUCH waiting and rearranging! First we were told to get ready to "go" by feb, then march/april, Now possibly mid may...and we are stillllll waiting on the details of schedule , pay and relocation benefits...I mean, we are ready and can go whenever, with little effort to put in to make it all happen, but still...I am a planner and this irks me. All that being said, we are THIS close to getting all the answers we need, I can practically smell it and I am going insane waiting! I just want to know it all NOW and have a D day to count down to officially...I want to book flights and fill out POD up without having to worry we will be here 2 months more, shuffling through boxes to find (insert needed item that was packed)...We should have all the details no more than a week from now....Could be sooner...
soo.....we wait...and wait....
Oh please, oh please, let us get answers soon!! The planner in me need to PLAN!! ahhh!!
This last season of life has presented more challenges and waiting than I would have liked...Its been nearly unbearable. Especially, the baby thing. To have waited so LONG (more than a year just to get surgery to TTC again- then 3+YEARS of actively trying) and have so many losses, and invested SO much money, all for nothing, it is a hard pill to swallow...It makes one not want to take risks again, quite frankly...The "what can go wrong, usually will" is a theme that seems to have followed me around these days, along with Murphy's law...
So when we decided to step out and relocate from NY to CA, we had an inkling that we might run into a few bumps in the road here and there...Never did we expect there to be sooooo MUCH waiting and rearranging! First we were told to get ready to "go" by feb, then march/april, Now possibly mid may...and we are stillllll waiting on the details of schedule , pay and relocation benefits...I mean, we are ready and can go whenever, with little effort to put in to make it all happen, but still...I am a planner and this irks me. All that being said, we are THIS close to getting all the answers we need, I can practically smell it and I am going insane waiting! I just want to know it all NOW and have a D day to count down to officially...I want to book flights and fill out POD up without having to worry we will be here 2 months more, shuffling through boxes to find (insert needed item that was packed)...We should have all the details no more than a week from now....Could be sooner...
soo.....we wait...and wait....
Oh please, oh please, let us get answers soon!! The planner in me need to PLAN!! ahhh!!
Patience is the hardest virtue EVER! Hoping you get a move on soon!
ReplyDeleteThank you!! I will be shouting from the rooftops once we have a date! :) And taking many pictures to document the journey along the way so we dont forget this lovely little season...lol
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