Wow...we have made it to 9 weeks!

I'm so thankful to be here... 9 weeks today...

When I wrote my last entry it felt like I would never get "here"... It feels rather surreal.

I found both babies heartbeats on the Doppler this morning. Baby B is much higher and to the left and baby A is tucked down to the right under my pubic bone. It's so wonderful to be able to wake up and hear them - 💗

I gotuesdsy for my last scan for the RE's -then I won't see the little ones again till the NT scan-with MFM - can't wait for that! They will look so Cute!!! More like babies and not beans.

I'm feeling... Good- no real symptoms other than some fatigue, mood swings and hunger. I am def expanding in the midsection though.

I am so thankful for this opportunity - without the gift of embryo donation/adoption I wouldn't be here ...

I am so in love with these snowflake babies 💙💚

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