Purpose Driven Motherhood

I just wanted to send a quick shout out to all my friends out here in the blogger world! I hope you have all had a restful, peaceful and BLESSED day, no matter where you are... Today....I am THANKFUL for ALL of you out there who have encouraged, and supported me through the last 3 years of this LONG hard journey...Knowing I have a few (more than a few I guess..lol) women out there who REALLY "get it" and can laugh, cry, and grieve right along with me has been priceless and very meaningful to me....Most of you I have never even met in person, yet I feel a connection to this community of women on such a deep level,  am not even  sure there are words to describe it...Thank you ALL so VERY much, for every comment, prayer and message I have received over the years...It means more to me than you will ever know!! To those who are struggling right now, with some VERY difficult times/curcumatces in life, and may be having a hard time finding things to be thankful for and stay tha...

I have seen this song circulating around on social media a lot in the last few weeks...It touched me right from the first time I ever heard it...I have seen it touch many others as well, in many different ways...I recently saw a post by Holly at Oh Baby,Baby (who is in my prayers daily) that touched my heart, and just made me reflect how this song has impacted me as well... There are many ways one can "relate" to the lyrics in this song...For me, I recently found myself in a place where I was so broken, no... CRUSHED. I felt so totally abandoned by God, I was just begging him to "say something" to me... ANYTHING... I was "giving up on" some of my most intimate and special hopes and dreams, and it felt like I was having to say goodbye to the promises I felt HE gave me 4 years ago, that I was once so sure of ... Of course I will NEVER "give up" on my Lord Jesus, as he will NEVER and has never, ever given up on me.....But I know there are ma...

Actively TTC with injects, meds, ultrasounds, blood draws, thousands of dollars spent while dealing with immune related recurrent/ectopic pregnancy loss looks like.... Tears streaming down my face from all this pain... It can never be erased... sometimes, it just overtakes me... It was not supposed to be like this... You should be here with me... So,  I will hold you in my heart forever... Nothing take can your place, not ever...  Even though you are safe, in our father's arms Soaring far above the twinkling stars... My heart aches...Its just breaks...I miss you... I never got to hold you in my arms... I never got to see you smile.... You never got to see the sunshine, or  watch the clouds pass by... I was not supposed to be like this.... you should be here with me... So,  I will hold you in my heart forever... Nothing take can your place, not ever...  Even though you are safe, in o...

Ok... So....The big news? We are moving!.......... =) Some of you know we went to California to visit family a couple weeks back...What was a family vacation at the start, turned into scoping out a plan to relocate after a few days..... There are MANY reasons we want to/have wanted to leave New York...MANY...One, being TAXES...Holy hell, do they sock it to ya here in the Big freaking apple...Two being, the freaking COLD...I hate the cold, dreary weather in the winter, and sticky, nasty HUMID summers...Three. we need to get into a house that fits our budget better. We originally planned on going to North Carolina. But after spending 12 days back in my old hometown of Big Bear, Lake Arrowhead, CA area...Both DH and I were ready to come back to NY and pack up right away to move out there! If only it were that easy! LOL. We have MUCH to do...The biggest thing? Selling this house! The transfer part for DH with his job is pretty easy, and the district managers already have things in...

This is song is one of the most amazing songs I have ever heard...This was originally a spontaneous prophetic song, done at IHOP by Misty Edwards...I feel like this speaks to me in so many, many ways...It is from the perspective of God, speaking to us...I thought I would share this with you all....maybe someone else really needs to hear this song as much as I did, and still do...I listen to it every day...Blessings

I don't have tons of time...we are washing clothes and packing...Tomorrow is our last full day here in CA....It has been an amazing trip! (outside of AF showing like 5 days early! UGH)...But here is a bunch of pics! We have TONS of video to be uploaded and such...But here are a few snaps from my Iphone!  (our room etc) The pool on the roof of the #rd floor....  we had so much fun- the pics are only a few...The suite had 3 room! and a sitting area etc! we bunked with my parents as well, so we could spend quality time with the grandparents for the kids...and well...I needed some "mommy and me time" with  MY mommy =) (pictured to the left- watching the kids swim on a break from the park)                                                                        ...

In about 15 mins we will head off down the road, to Anaheim, CA to take the kids on a surprise trip to Disneyland!! We are staying the night at the Paradise Pier, Disney hotel!! Pics to follow soon!!!!!!! =)