Goals reached...And Opps...

I at least accomplished one thing I set out to do...And am super close to accomplishing yet another goal...

Since June 15th, I have lost 30 lbs!

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AND- we are almost totally gluten free, not just me, but the WHOLE family! Eating better, staying more active....

Oh, and DH is getting a promotion soon! Not enough to pay for Adoption, surrogacy, or treatments, BUT at least enough to start getting out of the debt we got in paying for that last cycle in april...

All in all, the last 8 weeks have been productive...Def helps keep the mind from wandering....

As strange as it is....I MISS TTC....we still have as much sex as if we were TTC, so thats good, (lol) and it isn't forced, planned etc....BUT, I miss that anticipation of ovulating, then getting crosshairs on my chart, waiting to test, etc.......Even though I knew, after so many losses our chances were zlich, of getting a take home baby, I just always had some hope....As I said in a previous post, I find that Hope creeping back in..."what if we just try one more time on our own?".... So not cool....

It's even harder, not to "go there" when DH swoops in with a middle of the night quickie, for his B day- after we had had a couple screwdrivers, and forgot wrap it...

Here is hoping the alcohol, and being "irresponsible" with contraception methods will result in some kind of miracle baby...Hey, It works for the crackheads! Right?

Side note: I had to stop the seasonale BC pills last month, due to a Blood pressure spike again while on it...Hormones, hate me! I dont know why I even try to take them, I always end up with the rarest of side effects, and all sort of issues...

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