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5 years ago, Today...My little baby girl Hannah's heart stopped beating, at 19 ( just a day away from 20 weeks) weeks along....We did not find out until the next day (aug 5th 2008)....My heart is a bit heavy today, thinking of who she would have been...But strangely, when I think of her, I no longer weep uncontrollably....Instead, I smile...I am thankful for all I have learned about myself, and even others....I am thankful for the moments I did have with her while she was here...That I was able to feel her inside of me, alive and kicking, for as long as I could..I am Thankful for a God who carried me through, every step of the way....Thankful for the people who came along side of me and loved me, and didn't try to "fix" me, or make it better, they just were "there"....I am thankful For the courage to live, when all I felt like I doing was dying, after having my soul crushed when she left this earth...The the strength to keep going on, and never giving up HOPE ...I never thought I would reach a day where I don't weep for ALL of our angel babies ( as we have many)...But, Today, I feel peace in my soul, even in the midst of so much grief that still lingers......My heart still aches, deep down, and always will....But I won't let that ache, turn me bitter, jaded, or angry.....No, I have overcome, with the help of my Lord Jesus...I am a survivor...I am a daughter of the King, and a force to be reckoned with...Nothing will keep me down or bound...



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