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Song I am writing...

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I have started to write a song in honor of our angel babies...It is far from done, but you have to start somewhere, right?


Tears streaming down my face
from all this pain...
It can never be erased...
sometimes, it just overtakes me...

It was not supposed to be like this...
You should be here with me...

So,  I will hold you in my heart forever...
Nothing take can your place, not ever...
 Even though you are safe, in our father's arms
Soaring far above the twinkling stars...
My heart aches...Its just breaks...I miss you...

I never got to hold you in my arms...
I never got to see you smile....
You never got to see the sunshine, or 
watch the clouds pass by...


I was not supposed to be like this....
you should be here with me...

So,  I will hold you in my heart forever...
Nothing take can your place, not ever...
 Even though you are safe, in our father's arms
Soaring far above the twinkling stars...
My heart aches...Its just breaks...I miss you...


They say time, it can heal all wounds...
But I know this is just not true...Not when it comes to you...
I still miss you the same...My heart , it still aches...I miss you...

So,  I will hold you in my heart forever...
Nothing take can your place, not ever...
 Even though you are safe, in our father's arms
Soaring far above the twinkling stars...
My heart aches...Its just breaks...every single day......I miss you...

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