Purpose Driven Motherhood

High fructose corn syrup  is, unfortunately, one of the top four ingredients in soft drinks, low fat salad dressings and nearly all types of fast foods and highly  processed foods . HFCS is also found in beer, pasta sauce, protein bars, bread, convenience foods, frozen foods, and, well, pretty much every type of food we routinely eat. Even more alarming is that the corn which is being grown to produce the vast amounts of high fructose corn syrup made largely from  genetically modified corn --which comes with its own set of dangers. High fructose corn syrup is currently manufactured to either contain equal amounts of fructose and glucose, or over eighty percent fructose and twenty percent glucose. While glucose is metabolized by every cell in the body, fructose is metabolized solely in the liver. More and more common are those who have never drunk alcohol, yet end up with cirrhosis of the liver-or fatty liver-- due entirely to the massive amounts of high fructose corn syr...

My antihistamine protocol! yay!! AND, to top it off, our BD timing was GREAT, and my chart is looking freaking awesome this month!!! I hate that I am already getting so stoked about this cycle, cause I know how bad the let down is, but then again, no amount of restrained joy or optimism, makes it easier if it is "over", so I guess I will stick to being excited and positive. It should make the next week a LOT easier to deal with...and Hopefully I can stick with the same frame of mind should we get a BFP... I am so sick of being pessimistic about it all, but some days I just can't help it...

Got another temp rise today! I Ovulated!! 2 days past ovulation today! I will get my Cross hairs tomorrow!!! That puts me with a Hopeful EDD of Oct 18th 2012! I HOPE, hope, hope this is the month!! I start the antihistamine protocol tomorrow! I am anxious to see how it works out...I have read a few more forums and success stories about it over the last few days...Some think it only the prednisone that does the trick, but I think the other meds have a link too... So, I will try it this month with no prednisone, and if it is a no go, i'll be asking the RE next cycle to try a low dose 5 mg Prednisone to go along with the other meds and see how it goes. I do hope though that we don't have to go on to "next cycle"....

I stumbled across some info the other day on a few different sites and forums, that talked about some reproductive immunologists giving some ladies with repeat un explained losses this cocktail of meds to help dampen down the immune system a bit around implantation. I read a couple personal accounts of ladies who took it with success and a few ramblings from the DR's who were discussing the theory behind it a bit...  Basically, you take a claritin pill in the morning, a pepcid at noon and a bennadryl or prednisone in the evening. ( I will take the bennadryl instead of prednisone, as I don't tolerate it well, and bennadryl is OTC) and You start taking this cocktail around 3to4 days past ovulation (or in the case of the IVF ladies, 2 days before transfer) and it is supposed to possibly help those with underlying immune issues and recurrent unexplained losses. Then I started thinking about it, and in each of my full term pregnancies, I had been taki...

I am so stoked! I finally got a + OPK this month!! For the last few cycles I had trouble catching my surge. I would test 4 times a day,from CD12-20 and still never get a +...It was frustrating! So I fully expected this same thing to happen this month, and to my surprise, this morning I got a beautiful + Ovulation test!! I am praying this is "the" month we get that take home baby to stick!!!

I am just so full of mixed emotions as I enter this cycle's fertile period. I go back and forth from being so hopeful and expectant that this will be THE month, to,  this overwhelming fear of another failed cycle or miscarriage....I know I need to just stop thinking about it, but I can't. I want to be able to say, I have relaxed, and been revived. But frankly, I am just as sad an desperate for this journey to be over with as I was when I started "trying" to not stress. I know that our blessing will come... I just hate not knowing WHEN... and going through the motions over and over and over again.... Lord help me.... My heart goes out to those who are in this same place... It is just such a difficult spot to be in. My prayers are with you... May this be the year of many blessings to those who have been waiting so patiently! :baby dust: