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Starting to feel like "home"

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Its been so strange being back in my old home town, back in good ol California...But, it feels GOOD! Its so much different in this new season of my life..I cannot explain it, but I just feel like every day I am here, a weight is being lifted off of me...Despite the craziness of my health struggles, I am filled with much more peace and joy on a regular basis...I can stretch out, breathe and be "me"....Crazy, silly, perfectly imperfect ME...
Me with some elementary/middle school buddies :) catching up, reminiscing, being silly, and making new memories! 


I have been connecting with old friends, in this new season, and it just amazes me how MUCH we ALL have been through, and survived...seeing who we all have become through the years...Being in our 30's now, things are just different, but at the same time, seem so much like the "good ol days" all at once...I have also met some new friends who have brought a richness to my life that I cannot seen to explain in words adequately...

Each new day is an adventure, and filled with new things...Because I am here with my amazing husband and kids, who are new to this area, it is like I am experiencing it all for the very first time. I am so thankful that we "made it" out here, and were able to make the HUGE decision to move 3,000 miles and totally flip our worlds upside down to make this new start...It wasn't EASY, but it was worth it...

With every passing day, it starts feeling more like HOME, and less like a chaotic, prolonged vacation...lol...

Here are some random pics :)



IN N Out Burger!!!!!! YUM!!!
 


                                                           More sunsets....


View from the road that goes across the mountain range... The mountain breeze and sun on my skin...Its priceless...
                                                                           




view from front porch when sun sets after a storm...
critters...lol




More views while driving...Breathtaking every time we leave the house...



My back yard...
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