Purpose Driven Motherhood

It has been SO uber cold here, that I have had to resort to using the fake sun to get some vitamin D! OMG, it felt AMAZING!   Aside  of wishing for warmer weather, we have been waiting on pins and needles for details on the transfer and new position. The are taking FOR EVEAH to work out the details- I hope and pray it will all pay off, this waiting and being patient crap.   The house....well, we are working out details of an incoming offer this weekend, and hope to be able to "accept" it soon! That will be a HUGE step in the right direction in regards to this move etc, so prays for a smooth transaction would be appreciated!     I do have a LITTLE bit of exciting news...     wanna know what it is??..........................................   OK, ok......           My tuition for Stillbirthday University's bereavement doula training program is PAID IN FULL, and I start cl...

“For in grief nothing "stays put." One keeps on emerging from a phase, but it always recurs. Round and round. Everything repeats. Am I going in circles, or dare I hope I am on a spiral? But if a spiral, am I going up or down it? How often -- will it be for always? -- how often will the vast emptiness astonish me like a complete novelty and make me say, "I never realized my loss till this moment"? The same leg is cut off time after time.”  ―  C.S. Lewis ,  A Grief Observed

Into my 21 day Beachbody challenge, and despite having to deal with another chemical preg (I have stopped counting how many we have had- we have been NTNP/ AKA, doing a terrible job avoiding) which resulted in a KILLER AF this week,  but none the less, I am feeling great physically! I dont think I have lost anything weight wise,( I'll measure and do weight next week) but I am feeling much more flexible, and stronger (now that the soreness has started to ease). I have been making MUCH better eating choices too...Here is my Dinner from tonight- Doesn't look so great, but it was YUMMY! Spaghetti squash ( baked first to cook) mushrooms and garlic sauteed in a dash of olive oil, then mixed with squash, and a dash of fresh grated parmesan cheese on top.   The squash, and mushrooms, with a pepper mix is also delish with a low fat alfredo sauce as a replacement for pasta!  My fave thing that I have added to my routine with this program? The SHAKEOLOGY! OMG, YUMMY!! ...

LOVING my Younique 3D Fiberlashes... And apparently so does everyone else! They are selling out like crazy! Get those pre- orders in!! ORDER NOW

You know... THAT appointment...The one where you go and sit in a room FULL of pregnant bellies, and babies in infant car seats, and toddlers running a muck...The one where you have to spead eagle, and get your crotch poked, prodded and scraped...Yes... The ANNUAL OB appt ...ugh....Tomorrow, I have to face it, even though id rather being doing anything other than that!... I have always hated OB appts, especially the yearly...Ick...But now, I realllllyyyyy HATE them...Ever since the day we found out our Hannah had passed, and I had to walk back through a room full of happy pregnant women, with a dead baby in me...It just send me to a dark place every time I go back, as if I am re living it again., and again, and again....But more than that, this time, I am dreading having to re hash out everything, and do a quick recap for my OB who has not been in "the loop"... Most of my care in the last 3+ years has been through my RE, so I only saw my OB  a couple times, and last w...