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How in just a few short hours, I can go from feeling soooooo optimistic and totally revived and ready to face this year...To,  feeling like sobbing at every little tiny thing... Or flying off the handle over  nothing...
I blame the clomid. LOL!
But seriously, this road, called TTC can get a bit....insane...

Let me explain...

I live my life in 2 week increments, all wrapped around timing BD and taking meds, setting timers for temping and taking vitamins 3 times a day, staring at pee sticks over and over again while snapping pics to post online..... then repeat every month... expecting a different result... the definition of insanity... yup...that sums it up...lol...

I am trying to embrace my TTC insanity, but I am wearing thin... this journey is getting OLD... really OLD...
Please let there be a end in sight....

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  1. M---January 3, 2012 at 1:22 PM

    Meg-- I sure hope that you get a BFP that sticks soon. I know it is hard... but know that in this time of waiting, you are in inspiration to others.

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 7, 2012 at 11:44 PM

    I wanted to ask. I want to get my tubes untied. So I can try for a baby. Do u know if any insurance covers any or all of the procudure.

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  3. MegDE2015January 8, 2012 at 7:59 PM

    Almost 98% of the time they do NOT cover a tubal reversal. I tried even getting it for medical reasons and was denied, I had to pay out of pocket, but I swear it was the best spent money ever!
    =)
    if there is a will there will be a way!

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