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All mixed up

I am just so full of mixed emotions as I enter this cycle's fertile period. I go back and forth from being so hopeful and expectant that this will be THE month, to,  this overwhelming fear of another failed cycle or miscarriage....I know I need to just stop thinking about it, but I can't. I want to be able to say, I have relaxed, and been revived. But frankly, I am just as sad an desperate for this journey to be over with as I was when I started "trying" to not stress. I know that our blessing will come... I just hate not knowing WHEN... and going through the motions over and over and over again....
Lord help me....
My heart goes out to those who are in this same place... It is just such a difficult spot to be in. My prayers are with you... May this be the year of many blessings to those who have been waiting so patiently!
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