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Muscular ventricular septal defect...

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Those are the words I heard yesterday flow out of the mouth of the pediatric cardiologist following a 3 + hour ultrasound for echocardiogram's for the twins... (Fetal Echo is standard testing for IVF pregnancies) 

Before she even opened her mouth I knew the results were not normal... Between the scan taking a realllyyyy long time to get extra images on Baby A, and the little pad in her hand with a diagram of a heart, and the look on her face... I knew... 

She did a great job of making it sound really "normal" and non threatening, but Inside I was trying so hard not to lose it... I managed to make it to the car before tears came down... 

The good news is, it's a pretty common defect, and has a chance of closing on its own so little Josiah won't need surgery, but there are no garruntees of course. The other positive aspect is we know ahead of time, and can plan accordingly ... 

Of course our hope is that when I go back in 6 weeks for a follow up echo, it's closed and we can just move on... 

But man, it's hard to hear news like that... I just wanted to hear "they both look perfect"... I honestly expected there to be issues at anatomy scan, so once that came back great I let my guard down and just was taken back when there was an issue detected this time around....

So now we just keep praying... And believing that the Lord will heal... 💙

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  1. AnonymousMay 26, 2016 at 2:25 AM

    How are you all doing?

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  2. SmilekleenerMay 28, 2016 at 12:02 AM

    Any updates?

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  3. MizDaysieJuly 4, 2016 at 11:07 PM

    Meg, I "met" you years ago in a FB ttc group. I have been following your heartbreaking. Journey from a distance and praying for you along the way. I am praying that everything is OK...you have not posted an update in a long time...

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