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Limbo land...

OK so today's beta was 78-

Braverman called me personally with the results, even though they said they wouldn't be managing me anymore, he is willing to help me along side  my RE to manage this all to the end whatever it may be, which is nice, I guess.....I did stop the neupogen though as I don't have any left- I am not wasting it on this pregnancy and if by some miracle is sticks then well it does.......anyway... He said that I should be ok in term of rupture since the HCG is so low IF it is ectopic- But he said because the numbers have consistently doubled appropriately, (DT of 27 hours last two draws) they cannot discount it being a uterine pregnancy either, despite passing all sorts of "stuff" yesterday and heavy bleeding...He said he has seen a healthy baby result from a situation almost identical to mine- so there is a slim chance- he said the probability of it being viable is small, but things can happen- I am not convinced with my progesterone being less than 2 now...so I to keep taking progesterone, and go for another beta monday- and every 2 days till I get to around 800-1000 HCG-  then I go for a ultrasound to try and find placement- If before then at any time my HCG does not double properly then I am to get the metho shot ASAP.  or If I experience any severe pain, go to the ER etc....
Ugh this limbo is NUTS! I am not expecting this to end well- not at all...
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