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Happy hour!! whooo hooo!

Yes...I realize what time it is...But, it IS 5 o clock somewhere....Right!?

Screw this cycle! Screw TTC and all the emotional baggage that goes with it...Screw the weight gain from fertility meds...Screw the temping, OPK's, CM, CP and all that jazz....Just screw it...
I am going to spend the remainder of today, sipping on this bottle of red, and watching some Grey's, while I try to pretend my heart has not been crushed, yet anther time...I am well aware my denial will end soon, and reality will hit, and I will have to face the pain, face TTC....Face it all over again....But today, I am going to say screw it, and enjoy happy hour/day.



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  1. JustMeDecember 28, 2012 at 12:10 PM

    Good for you! Sometimes a little "unhealthy" coping is needed! In other words, drink up and try to relax and move on to the next one.

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  2. KaraDecember 28, 2012 at 7:16 PM

    Hope that bottle of beautiful red did just what you needed it to! This TTC stuff is for the birds. Such an emotional roller coaster, that sometimes you just need to let go and get nice and tipsy. Hope you were able to do just that!

    Hugs,
    Kara
    www.waitingonbabyb.wordpress.com

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  3. UnknownDecember 28, 2012 at 10:54 PM

    I will join you!!! no af today not pg let's drink!!!

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