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I can hardly keep up! I was thinking this break would take FOREVER! but, it really is going by fast! I am now more than a week into my second birth control pill pack, and actually feeling GREAT! I was so worried the side effects i felt the first month on them would last the whole duration of of our break, but apparently my body has adjusted, and is doing well! AF this last time was very strange...Not bad, just different. I feel almost as if my body "cleansed it self" with this last AF and my ovaries feel at "rest" if that makes sense...

So I have lost a few pounds, and am still doing good eating better...I have been more active and starting this week will be running twice a week with my neighbor! I hope that helps me drop a few more pounds quick like! LOL...

There is still a part of me that is just squirming inside having to wait to TTC again....I just want our take home baby to come so very bad...But I know that I needed this break...I know That my body needed to rest...And I needed to heal emotionally...

I keep day dreaming about what the fall will bring...praying for a June or July 2013 take home baby...It kills me to think we don't even have a chance at having a baby before then, and it will be at least a year from now or longer before I get to end this journey and that is being optimistic...Just realizing we have been "at" this for over a year and a half is just mind boggling...It is NOT what I had in mind at all when we started this journey...Not even close...Time just keeps ticking away...tick- tock...tick- tock....

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  1. joshbethJuly 17, 2012 at 1:29 AM

    I was just asking about you on the TTC after MC page and was so glad when someone posted your blog. Been thinking and praying for you lots. Praying that you get prego as soon as your break is up. Sending lots of prayers your way!

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    1. MegDE2015July 17, 2012 at 5:53 AM

      Hey!! thank you for thinking of me/checking up on me...I so appreciate that, and all the prayers...They realllllllly DO help!! I am feeling much better now, and just focusing on getting healthy, and emotionally ready to try again...I am feeling VERY positive about our chances! Thank you again for being such a support to me...It really means the world to me!

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