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OK. So, I went in to see the RE. we chatted and updated on a few things/info on chart. then I asked him about his take on immune issues in fertility. We spoke about Braverman and Dr. Beer( who is passed now). He actually worked with Dr. Beer back in the 90's for a little while.. anyway. he basically said he does NOT believe in it, except for maybe the rare less than 1 % case. But he said I am far from that with 3 live births etc.(so no prednisone at all) He offered to monitor me for the rest of this cycle as a unmedicated one, to get a peek at what is going on hormonally and by u/s on a regular cycle. But he said that was subjective too, as cycles vary from month to month. Then I will have a saline ultrasound to look for issues inside after AF next month. Then if all is well, I am going to do a letrozole cycle with a trigger for luteal support and to trigger O. Not sure what that will land us, but at least there is something to look forward too,...=/
I think...
I am kind of feeling like all of this effort will still lead to nothing, and eventually God will just bless us out of the blue, but I don't know If I can take that answer... maybe if I come to terms with it and do, it will happen? I know that's ridiculous I don't think God works conditionally like that anymore, but maybe?? I feel like I do not know anything about anything anymore...

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